One Weird Family

So I was laying down one day, enjoying a beautiful nap without actually sleeping amd at some point then I imagined having you my beloveds with me and me there trying to explain what I’m like:P I knew I had to come up with a description and so I started in my head. But oh it was so nice there with my pillow I didn’t get up. But here’s some of the things I told you, in my head :D

My brain is a continual mix of Spanish and English. I’d find it impossible to recall in which language I thought such and such thing in, don’t ever ask me that. The only problem with this is that I have times when I really can’t express myself well in one sole language being so used to both –grins. Bad, very bad!
I love it how I can spanglish all I want with the ppl in my house (aka my awesome lil family) Now I don’t know if they understand all of my outbursts..I couldn’t expect them to –another big grin.

I love having my hands, feet and mouth clean! It doesn’t mean I won’t eat or won’t play with mud –but about the mud I will consider if I’ll have somewhere to wash it off laterz. Haha.
I can’t sing. Ppl ask me to sing, I’ll ruin their evening. And they have asked me! But okay they all lived…thank God. The thing is though, I love singing! –when I’m not asked to, but just out of my heart, bursting in song.
Oh I mumble, I hate mumbling! –I’m working on that. I read somewhere that humming improves enunciation. Just every time I hum, I end up singing :D except last night tho, I didn’t know the song, I just remembered the melody.

I adore nature. My mom even suggested I carry a plant with me all the time so that I won’t “suffer” when there’s no greenery in the place. But no, that’s a bit too much, hah! I mean, how could I be carrying a plant everywhere?! No-O, if it had flowers they’d be surely ruined! …yeah.
I love awaking to the song of birds, and I have that here, many days.
My favorite time of day is the hours before and after sunset. It’s so cute, I didn’t know that until once my dad asked me, and then some other time Jesse did. At this time you have a possibility of catching me dancing on the streets, twirling around maybe or just walking looking a tad bit distracted!–at least I think I must look like that.
I’m the kinda girl that will smell a rose upon seeing one. :D When I was in Monterrey Steph made it her job to draw me away from them, cause…I’d be tempted to step into other’s ppl’s property :D.
I’m a nut for the moon. Finding and looking at it makes me smile, without it mattering what I’m going through. And then, the moon is not constant or anything, it’s changing and moving but still, somehow it gives me hope when I look at it. It reminds me that God is in control, even if it’s in the back of my head; He continues the cycles and makes things beautiful. Ayleene (2 yrs old) once squealed: “The Mooon! Jesus lives there!” I already knew I had found a kindred spirit in that little girl, but this just confirmed it. I love that poosh, sweet, squishy thing.

I have a clumsy nature, I run into walls, trip over tiny things, or more like with huge things in the middle of my way I thought I had dodged and stuff like that.

When I meet new people…I think I’ve changed the way I am in that respect. Before I’d be supremely quiet, and if I felt with enough courage I’d go with the shy ones –acting as if I were courageous :P-
When you meet me it might take a little while to be myself with you. But there are times, with certain ppl, even if they were total strangers two seconds ago when talking to them I feel like I’ve known and been with them forever and there’s no difficulty in being myself right off. Like this girl in school, she’s so sweet and simple, with this little twinkle in her eyes it was so easy to establish a connection with her. Haha and while walking along her I instinctively grabbed her hand when crossing the street. But that’s probably because I had heard her story, and how she had almost lost her life…I think it was just protective instinct or something, I don’t know.
It’s kinda dangerous though when I grab guys arms when walking with them, hahaha…not good, they might not realize it doesn’t mean anything special for me -most of the time. And that’s why I refrain from doing it..

I love hugs, I love kisses, caresses, all forms of affection. But if it’s someone’s way to slap and tickle as a form of a affection, not permitted! I might get violent (nods soberly and smiles).

I used to have terrible mood swings. But I think they’ve gotten a lot less frequent…for this I thank Jesus, Sandy and Nalies who prayed against these evil things. They do leave you drained and confused, I’d have them so often…and I think they’re still a part of my nature, something I have to keep continually in check.

I have a hard time understanding myself, that’s one of the reasons I didn’t sit down to write this any sooner.
I don’t know if I’m impulsive, generally I take a long time to decide something. I make plans in my head, I like having things figured out but that’s only possible very few times. I should stop trying so hard and learn to trust more.
I cry and I laugh wholeheartedly. Presently my laugh has this creepy ring to it, I don’t know what happened. But I remember this other time my laugh was also creepy, I’d even scare myself.

Oh god I get scared easily. I get impatient easily. I say things I regret and stand there editing them wishing time could go back.
I'm afraid that perhaps I’ll die or someone else will and I didn’t show them enough love. Or that I was just a foolish cookie in my life, worrying so much as if I didn’t have anything else to do.

Nina and Adrian have done a lot of things for me, my siblings are a huge part of who I am and I scream to them, squish them when hugging them, and I take them for granted most of the time. I know I won’t always have them around, as much as they’re annoying, I know I’ll miss them :D
Sandy is a huge reminder to me of what I’m here for, how every day is worthwhile, how love conquers all. She doesn’t say any of these things, but that’s just what her life expresses, even though she might think her life is simple or ordinary.
My parents are amazing ppl, we’ve gone through so many dramas together but having a family is not something we can take for granted…it’s not like you girls don’t know that, you go through difficult times too. Ugh, I hate it that I’m such a murmurer (is that a word?:D)

I actually NEED to be reminded of how things could be worse off, or how other’s have greater, real battles. Mine I feel are just like taking out weeds in that analogy of the weeds and bringing down the giants. Taking out the weeds isn’t something that makes me feel good, fighting “giants” would at least make me feel I’m doing something worthwhile or something, and then I feel really stupid getting discouraged over evil, persistent weeds that won’t get out.
I think I look forward to when I'll get older and do something more. Thinking as if I had to wait for my life to be something, to feel I’m living it, living what I’m here for. But it's not so, and I love being reminded of that.
I love smiling.
I think I make things unnecessarily complex in my head, and that’s why I love simple ppl, I run to them! -Any with a simple idea, a simple way of loving, a simple way of being, living and being happy. They have no idea, but I run to them!

I think I’ve made this way too long...-grins and continues-
I’m a perfectionist. I love things looking pretty, nice, at their best. So if a pile of clothes is in the middle of the room and I decide it looks pretty there it’ll stay! The same with any other mess, but if not, there I’ll be before I feel free to do anything else in that same space :D
My parents nicknamed me "Copito" after Snowflake from the story (Copito de nieve) Seems like I loved that story as a kid, and I do remember especially loving the part when the Shepherd takes the lamb in his arms and brings it back home :) -after of course being disobedient, getting lost, being hurt and afraid..it was sweet relief. :D
I hope I don't embarrass you by being too loud or foolish in public :D
If I were to give you a list of all the wonderful people I have in my life right now, this would really be way too long. I'm so blessed to have you and love you. I'm so thankful for they way my life is blessed with ppl like you, I'm a spoiled brat :)
Oh true! I love reading...-grins- I guess this is me, what I can explain. Your butt must be numb by now. But I tell you I have a terrible time explaining things I don't understand:D :D! Ask Sandy! :P